Fat Girl Memories

antiizionism: yanndere: tibets: el-dispute: Woman...

Wed, 24 Apr 2013 18:52:39 -0400

yanndere:

tibets:

el-dispute:

Woman Photographs Herself Receiving Strange Looks in Public

“I now reverse the gaze and record their reactions to me while I perform mundane tasks in public spaces. I seek out spaces that are visually interesting and geographically diverse. I try to place myself in compositions that contain feminine icons or advertisements. Otherwise, I position myself and the camera in a pool of people…and wait.

The images capture the gazer in a microsecond moment where they, for unknowable reasons, have a look on their face that questions my presence. Whether they are questioning my position in front of the lens or questioning my body size, the gazer appears to be visually troubled that I am in front of them.”

Photographer: Haley Morris-Cafiero

Project: Wait Watchers

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Thought this was actually really cool and I’d share it with you guys! Takes a lot to get up there and do something like this. Love it!

this is such a fucking important project to me because i am constantly stared at in public in a negative way and turned into some disgusting object for the amusement of others and this is a peaceful way to confront those people

turning the spectators into the spectacle

I have a major issue with this project. As an overweight person, I KNOW I do get looked at. I KNOW I have been made fun of behind my back because of my weight. I have experiences these things, so I am not discounting the idea behind this.

However, seriously - if anyone, ANYONE (even a supermodel), set up a tripod camera by themselves in the middle of the very busy sidewalk to take a picture of themselves, I’d give them a dirty look too. “WTF, I’m walking here, why are you taking pictures of yourself in the middle of walking traffic?”

Not to mention a lot of these apparently “negative” looks just look like a candid of that person. I live with chronic “bitch face” so most candids of me look like I am super pissed or disgusted with the world.

Great idea for this project. However, not concrete proof, and does not prove anything to anyone. It opens an interesting discussion, maybe that was the main goal.

Happy 1 year Blogiversary!

Sat, 20 Apr 2013 19:02:43 -0400

I’ve had this blog about one year. It’s been wonderful. I started at about 232 lbs. I’ve lost 30 lbs this year. I felt annoyed I didn’t lose a lot more, but it’s 30 lbs off of my body. I’m still working on it. I’m just not sure how I feel about running this blog anymore. I started it to help me work through the origins of how I was taught to hate myself and my body. The memories, the people who taunted me, the boy who rejected me. I wanted to write them down for a sort of healing to occur. It has occurred to a great extent. I still have work to do.

I’d like to shift this blog from focusing on the negative memories from my past, to the positive memories as I shape my future. I realize that this may affect how my followers feel about my blog. I’m sure the past will come up at times, but I need to stop dwelling on the past hurts and rejections I’ve faced and figure out how to evolve and better myself :)

So - here we go - year 2 of the Fatgirlmemories blog.

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Tue, 19 Mar 2013 13:25:45 -0400

beforeandafterfatlosspics: calendargirl—redux September 2011 I...

Sun, 17 Mar 2013 16:32:31 -0400

beforeandafterfatlosspics:

calendargirl—redux

September 2011 I was probably around 220lbs, not even my highest weight. I had just started grad school and wouldn’t start my weight loss journey until April 2012 (coming up on my one year :D). I would always wear a cami under my T-shirts because they were too tight and I thought it “smoothed me out”. That cami now hangs off of me. I think those pants are probably a 16 - I’m now a 12.

March 2013 (today) and I’m ~170lbs.

My goal is around 140lbs or whenever I feel happiest. I am 5’6 :).

-calendargirl—redux

health-diary: weightloss830: fitoptimism: i want to do the...

Sat, 16 Mar 2013 15:24:16 -0400

health-diary:

weightloss830:

fitoptimism:

i want to do the princess half marathon at disney in 2014 :)

my sister did this a few years ago! she loved it :)

I DIDN’T EVEN KNOW THIS WAS A THING. I want to do this someday!

Looks like I have another goal to attain.

What show is that that you keep posting gif sets of?

Thu, 14 Mar 2013 18:45:26 -0400

My Mad Fat Diary - based off of a book, but made into a mini-series (though I hear they’re making it into a re-occurring thing!) The first season/series is available to watch on youtube! It’s a really great show.

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Thu, 14 Mar 2013 17:54:37 -0400

findingmyownbliss: Josh Hutcherson working out is the best...

Sun, 10 Mar 2013 22:14:41 -0400

findingmyownbliss:

Josh Hutcherson working out is the best fitspo ever

FALALALALALA — I CAN’T HEAR YOU OVER THE SOUND OF JOSH HUTCHERSON’S JAWLINE —-

wat.

Sat, 09 Mar 2013 20:52:02 -0500

When I woke up this morning, my usually tight fitting claddagh ring I wear was beside me in my bed.

I then began to curse the weightloss gods because WTF MY HANDS ARE ALREADY SMALL WHY ARE THEY LOSING WEIGHT YET MY THIGHS ARE STILL THE SIZE OF THUNDER

weightloss problems

YAY

Sun, 03 Mar 2013 11:12:00 -0500

I bought a Keurig, which is one of the most wonderful inventions in the world. You use these little flavored cups to make delicious hot beverages, if you’ve never used one…go do so!

Anyway, you can have a chai tea latte (that tastes pretty darn similar to a starbucks chai) for about 60 calories or so, hot coco for about 70, and hot apple cider for about 80. Delicious hot beverages for under 100 calories. WIN!

Obsessed with this show.

Sat, 02 Mar 2013 18:55:25 -0500

Obsessed with this show.

funeralformyfat: Adam Hills destroys Joan Rivers for her Adele...

Sat, 02 Mar 2013 01:47:45 -0500

funeralformyfat:

Adam Hills destroys Joan Rivers for her Adele comments.

I dislike Joan RIvers. Adele is AMAZING. this really really pisses me off.

so

Thu, 28 Feb 2013 23:11:20 -0500

Anyone watched My Mad Fat Diary? It’s on youtube. SO FUNNY. and also my life.

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Thu, 28 Feb 2013 21:42:54 -0500

nutrientnatalie: worldfamousprofessor: a portrait of the inner...

Mon, 25 Feb 2013 20:57:17 -0500

nutrientnatalie:

worldfamousprofessor:

a portrait of the inner struggle

me: wow I'm fat

Mon, 25 Feb 2013 19:02:57 -0500

me: wow I'm fat
me: maybe I look ok
me: I AM PERFECT THE WAY I AM
me: I'm fucking disgusting I'm losing weight now
me: I am more than just my weight!
me: who the fuck cares about anything
me: I AM SO FAT.
me: idk curves are beautiful i am beautiful
me: i hate myself

Me, in my room, dancing.

Mon, 25 Feb 2013 18:22:02 -0500

Me, in my room, dancing.

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Thu, 21 Feb 2013 20:17:30 -0500

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Thu, 21 Feb 2013 20:17:03 -0500

I am very happy!

Wed, 20 Feb 2013 21:33:19 -0500

Today I found a whole bunch of weight loss calculators, and basically I found out that I can potentially reach my “goal weight” by my birthday, November 5th. If I work really hard, of course. I say “goal weight” because I don’t really know if that’s my goal, but I found some pictures of girls at my height with that weight, and it looks pretty great to me. Also, I will be just barely out of the “overweight” category of BMI — but if I gain some muscle, I will be OK with being a little heavier!

Saying you have 58 lbs to lose is so much more wonderful than saying you have 88 lbs to lose.

I want to lose as much weight as I can in the next 40 days, because I “re-started” my weight loss journey a year ago in April (roughly) so I’d love to be able to see and maximize how much weight I lost this year. I started at 232 in April, I am currently 202/203 so roughly 30 lbs. If I lose 10 more….which is totally doable… that will put me at 40 lbs for the year, which is very respectable. Although it’s not coming off as fast as I’d like, weight loss is weight loss and I am happy!

I am still close to breaking into the 100’s - this week or next. Galentine’s Day eating sort of spread into Galentine’s day weekend eating…to “oh there are Galentine’s leftovers on Monday” eating…. I’m not worried about it. I screwed up and ate like crap… time to get it going.

This weekend did teach me that I need to figure out how to enjoy girl’s nights outs without gorging myself. Or to enjoy being social without gorging myself…